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Oct. 8th, 2006 11:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
littlelotte
I win!
I like to take my time with certain books. Digest them slowly and let them simmer in my head between sittings; not read them all at once--usually this happens with books that become all-time favorites. It took me three months to work through House of Leaves, about three weeks to work through Lolita, about a month or so to work through Possession, and just this evening I hit the point in Only Revolutions where the o's met. Where the bookmarks met. Each one left me shattered for a few minutes and temporarily unable to continue. I just gazed...amazed. Books so rarely hit me so deeply. It amazes me how MZD manages to write things that strike me so earthshatteringly that I can't even bring myself to continue reading for a bit. And they're always the smallest and simplest things...yet, at the same time, the most groundbreaking things. I'm silly with my books. I'm always scared to lend them out because I do things like write in them and highlight things. I never know whether I want the person I'm loaning it to to discover things on their own, like I did, or help them along...I'm never quite sure that I want to give so much of myself away either. I bought Dan his own copy of HoL because I just couldn't bear to part with mine. I loaned my copy of Phantom to someone who was a friend at the time and never got it back because they said they accidentally caused it some injury in the time they had it. They got me another copy--and a more "valuable" one (all years after it had been out of print)...but I was still heartbroken and just wanted my other copy back, regardless of battle scars, because of how much of myself was in it.
...and now it's late, and now I've been babbling on, so I should go to bed. I have work bright and early in the morning, and a long week ahead of me. Note to self, speaking of OR: I should call Julie tomorrow and see if she ended up getting Wednesday off...
Our Leftwrist Twists of Gold too.
Sticking US together.
--Everyone dreams the Dream
but we are it.
